Ignore-Rant - poem
A poem about how feeling ignored and emotionally unsafe.
Hi I’m Alicia You may not be able to see me As I’m buried alive in survival And the nails of my feelings Are filling with splinters and filth and hopelessness In search of light As deflating lungs collapse under the weight of your Ignorant negligence It wasn’t enough for me to wave And just say “hey, can we talk?” “Hey I need help.” “Hey I need you.” I had to dig Soil slips and seeps through the cracks Of this pine prison that makes isolation Seem both safe and insane And unseen How did I get six feet beneath you And you’re standing right in front of me? Why can’t you see That I can’t breathe? Hi I’m ignored And my heart knows you’ll tell me It’s not a big deal Maybe I should grow up But it’s not about me I can’t seem to get that little girl Out of that box And tell her she doesn’t have to keep digging The more I shovel her into freedom The deeper dirt pushes into her throat And she vomits the judgment of just wanting Someone to know She’s down there But all you can see is her filth Saying “she just wants some attention” Hi I’m human Though I feel like Wolverine With a heavy abnormality tearing through my humanness to force you to answer the question Do you hear me now? Do you see me now? Do you know what it’s like to feel dead When you’re alive And you don’t want rescued You just want someone to hold you So you don’t have to come back to life alone What can be broken and never held? Me Maybe that’s why isolation Feels insane…but safe They say hurt people hurt people And that broken little girl Wants to help you heal She’ll allow you to cut her open So she can sow you back together And you’ve never know She left the wounds open just to show you She survived